| suicide. |
[Feb. 4., 2009|07:00 pm] |
| [ | Aktuelle Stimmung |
| |  contemplative | ] |
taken from "windblown world" by jack kerouac.
"We are come into this earth and we do not know what we are supposed to do, and in all the disorder and confusion, we cry out in our souls- 'There must be truth, for I myself am true! true!' Yet all is false and foolish around us, and we ourselves are falsest and most foolish, and oh what are we supposed to do? What tremendous disorders appear, and where are we in it?-We don't feel at last that we are true. We feel we are false through and through. But I will soon write a paper entitled-"Strange Reasons for the abolition of Capital Punishment and Why Men Should No Longer Commit Suicide"-in which I will show that no matter what he has been done to man, he must not be destroyed or destroy himself-because in all the disorder and ghastly ruin of the world and the human imagination, there is still life and the possibility of redemption through the mere seeing of the earth, therough wonder, the most abject kind of wonder shuffling down the street, and in this whole thing is redeemable, and AT LAST, true! This is so unspeakable. A murderer must be given a chance to repent-the suicidal man must give himself a chance to wonder again, to SEE again. It's all here- for here is the chiefest thing: If a dead man were allowed to return to the earth, to live among men on the earth, for ONE DAY-whatever this soul wouls SEE and THINK, that is for us now, the living, that is the only truth, the most central feeling possible to man, the deepest".
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| (kein Betreff) |
[Okt. 16., 2008|06:39 pm] |
| [ | Aktuelle Stimmung |
| |  excited | ] |
IM GRADUATING EARLYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
yes! |
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| (kein Betreff) |
[Aug. 3., 2008|07:21 pm] |
| [ | Aktuelle Stimmung |
| |  accomplished | ] |
I'll be moving my movie reviews HERE:------> http://enterwittyurlhere.blogspot.com/ <-------
So that I don't have to type them in here anymore, and can continue to write about my shitty moods in my livejournal! |
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| BRICK |
[Aug. 3., 2008|12:55 pm] |
| [ | Aktuelle Stimmung |
| |  disappointed | ] |
Brick(2006) Rian Johnson.
This is a typical indie hipster movie: too cool for school druggies, nonchalant cigarette smokers, and characters with over-sized black frame glasses. This is basically all the movie is, with a twist: a mystery to be solved by high school student Brendan(Joseph Gordon-Levitt) trying to figure out who killed his high school crush.
The plot of this movie is absolutely absurd. It is confusing, boring, and slow paced. I tried so hard to get through the whole two hours, but could only withstand 103 minutes until I finally had enough. The movie paints a highly unrealistic picture of high school kids acting like adults: making drug deals and solving murders, with their parents right upstairs fixing them a snack. I find it hard to believe that high school students have Halloween parties in mansions, delicately sipping on wine and putting on shows wearing togas. The movie was hard to follow and completely pointless; you could never figure out what the characters were doing or why Brendan was doing what he was doing. The characters were so boring that it made me want to cry. Brendan showed no emotion throughout the entire film, not even when he discovers Emily dead. His character had no depth at all; we never got inside his head to see what he was thinking or feeling. The movie basically consists of him walking around the town talking to hipster characters who sit against walls smoking a cigarette trying to look cool and artistic. I find it almost impossible to enjoy or understand this movie, and most anyone who says they got anything out of the movie is surely lying, pretending to like it because it is "ARTSY".
There is one redeeming quality to the film though: the cinematography. Director Rian Johnson makes amazing use of long shots to convey main character Brendan's isolation. Another wonderful series of shots takes place when Brendan is seen talking to his principal. A medium low angle shot is used to show the principal talking to Brendan, and then it switches to a view of Brendan, a high angle medium shot. This was a very good angle choice to use, because it shows that Brendan has no option but to do what the principal wants him to do, and it shows the power of the principal, in contrast to Brendan's powerlessness.
Overall, this was not a very good movie. It had some potential, just very poorly executed. Perhaps if Johnson would have taken a different approach, and not tried so hard to make a hip film, but one that actually makes sense. The entire movie has a "hipper than thou", pretentious attitude, almost to the point where it is nauseating. If you want a movie to watch so that you can be portrayed as a artful deep thinker, rent this movie. If you want actual entertainment, this movie is not for you.
1.5 stars.
I'm sorry to say that this movie has taken a part of my love for indie movies and thrown it in the garbage.
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| Reviews |
[Jul. 27., 2008|10:33 am] |
American Psycho(2000)Mary Harron
First, the positive points of the movie: great cinematography, interesting set designs, and, most importantly, amazing acting from Christian Bale. Now for the negative: everything else. The script was horrible. Unlike other PSYCHOLOGICAL thrillers(cough cough SILENCE OF THE LAMBS), this had no mind games in it. It was basically just a guy going around killing people he didn't like. It didn't leave any guessing or mind work, he just got the victims drunk and hacked them up with an ax. I didn't even finish watching the movie; I found it completely pointless and boring. A good idea for a movie: bad execution.
Two stars. |
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| negative nancy. |
[Jul. 19., 2008|07:33 pm] |
| [ | Aktuelle Stimmung |
| | depressed | ] |
i really dont know what's wrong with me. im sick of feeling this way. im sorry, i hate complaining, and i hate feeling this way when i shouldnt. im not living on the streets, im not being abused, im not going hungry, im not dying of a life threatening illness. i feel horrible for feeling this way. im just going to have to wait until it passes, like it always eventually, slowly, does.
im going to be working 6 hours a day. at least it will take my mind off of things. once i start getting money im sure i'll be fine. i think thats what im really worried about. not being able to go to college and do what i want to do in life. once i start working, i'll be fine.
what they say is true, money really is everything. i try not to make it a top priority. but when im living in a box on the streets, collecting cats, screaming about how my movies are "famous", it will be an issue. its horribly sad that the world cares so much about material things. most people with depression hate themselves and feel bad for themselves. i must be the opposite of that. i hate the world, and i feel horrible for everyone in it. it depresses me to hear about murders and rape, robberies and failures. i just cant take all of this. economic downfall. rising gas prices. this must be a fraction of what people during the Great Depression felt. looking around me at how the world has gone to shit is what depresses me. i would love to have kids, but at the same time i do not want to bring them into this shitty world. our economy is shit, our culture is shit, WE as a whole species are shit. Global Warming, economic downfall, AIDS, cancer, poverty. its all here and its not going away. i dont want to raise kids in a fossil fuel garbage dump while listening to "Lil' Wayne" singing about "bitches and hoes", right in the midst of world war 2, maybe even 3.
and the worst part is, there is absolutely nothing i can do to stop it. |
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| (kein Betreff) |
[Jul. 16., 2008|01:24 pm] |
| [ | Aktuelle Stimmung |
| | confused | ] |
i dont like writing in here much.
my social awkwardness is getting worse. my OCD is getting worse. im starting to become the same person i was freshman year. except instead of caring too much, i dont care at all. i dont care about anything. im in my own world. most days i either sit at home, or go to lindsay's, nicole's or courtney's. but everyone works, and when they do im left alone watching political news and being depressed about social issues, political issues, economical issues, MY issues. im just so lazy. my life revolves around television. its pathetic. i have no one to make films with. im out of ideas. i have no other last attempt schemes left in my empty mind. my life now consists of getting through high school, falling asleep every night dreaming of college and getting out of this town. its the most cliche thought every kid my age has. getting out. why though? does anyone truly like their hometown anymore? i dont think its really the town. it's the way we do things. get up, drag through school, be pushed around by people. our only solace is hang out with our friends. sadly, i know i will never see most of my friends again. by age eighteen i hope to be miles away. no more feelings of content, no more 5 am bike rides through town. i will be working my ass of. for what? to inspire people, the way people have inspired me. to evoke an emotion through moving pictures. i dont care if i dont make it big. just as long as someone sees it. just as long as some gets that same feeling i get when i watch a good movie, listen to a meaningful song, or look at a paint splattered expression of someone's feeling. thats all i want. to tell a story. make people feel. something.
i am such a sappy human being. |
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| 8th grade personality test. |
[Mai. 10., 2007|07:31 pm] |
Your Existing Situation
Active, but feels that insufficient progress or reward is being made for the effort exerted
Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Believes that she is not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood nor adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.
Circumstances force her to compromise and to forgo some pleasures for the time being. Capable of achieving physical satisfaction from sexual activity.
Your Desired Objective
Over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. Longs for interesting and exciting things to happen and wants to be admired for her charm.
Your Actual Problem
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities
Your Actual Problem #2
Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations. |
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